21st Sept 2010.

hey ,

post on 21st of Sept !

there's 3 thing.

first , its exactly 1 month to MY 18th birthday - 21st Oct.

second , its my cousin KhaiKhai's 18th birthday.

i will not forget her birthday bcos she is 1month elder than me(:

btw , she's my maternal side cousin.

last but not least , it only left 34days to my O lvl Enligh&EMaths.

oh my goodness ~

i have a mixed feeling of emotion , both excited&scared.

excited bcos faster finish faster enjoy and do whatever i want and able to work !

scared bcos im not prepared yet and afraid tt i will not get th result i want again..

th feeling issn't really good , its hurtful and painful.

i'll always rmb th feeling after knowing i didnt get A1 for EMaths, POA and Science.

after knowing tt no one score an A1 for POA in Sec5N ,

i totally just broke down and burst out into tears , couldnt hold on anymore..

of cos i hid th tears to avoid ppl seeing me cried , but i think only Jaslyn saw.

so please , dun let it happen again.. dont let th history happen anymore..

im afraid of failure and not getting what i want.

once failure once pain is enough.

*tears are falling from my cheek again*

though i didnt retake POA , but i did take Emath&English.

EMath - A1 , English - B3/B4. & tts my aim in O level 2010.